Everything wears me out lately. There are 3 billion things on the to-do list and it just keeps growing. I'm so overwhelmed I have been procrastinating and stressing and not sleeping well which is only making it worse! I have made it such a priority to live a healthy, joyful, balanced life and it feels like a huge failure to admit I am not pulling it together. Since I know God is control, it is silly to let the "stuff" in life get the best of me. So why does it? I recite Jeremiah 29:11: "For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you hope and a future". This helps me take a deep breath, see all the amazing blessings he has poured out on me, and know it will be okay. The panicky moments that overtake me too often these days embarrass me and leave me drained emotionally & physically. Finishing a thought from beginning to end is a tough task these days, let alone an entire project. I keep telling myself that as the baby gets a bit older it will be easier, but what about all the stuff that needs to happens NOW? My relationship with Jesus is better than ever, I absolutely love and adore my family, the house, my job is great. So where is this constant exhaustion stemming from from? As I read over this it makes me cringe to sound so whiny, but I promised myself I would be real and honest in this blog, so I guess someone should call the wahhhh-mbulance. Time to kick out all this stinkin thinkin and focus on the good! My next post is going to be all about my amazing, beautiful family, which will no doubt be much more cheerful!